1. last beverage:
+ ginseng tea. =D

2. last phone call:
+ Niel

3 . last cd played:
+ CD?

4. last time you cried:
+ like last 3days ago?

5. last text message to:
+ Jason

1. dated someone twice?
+ no

2. kissed someone & regretted it?
+ nvr

3 . lost someone special?
+ i hope not

4. been depressed?
+ m I depressed?

5. been drunk and threw up?
+ no. the feeling is horrible..

LIST FIVE FAVORITE COLORS
+ BLACK red BLACK midnightblue BLACK


THIS MONTH HAVE YOU.

1. Made a new friend?
+ yes.

2 . Laughed until you cried?
+ yah.

3. Met someone who changed your life?
+ not realy. din change but inspired me.

4. Found someone who was your true friend?
+ true fren wont pangseh u.. and so far, I onli meet ONE.

5. Is there something you want to tell someone?
+ yes. I HATE U BYTCH

6. How many kids do you want to have?
+ can I dont have any? =D cant den mayb juz 2.

7. Do you have any pets?
+ no. I'm nt an animal lover. no thanks anyway.

8. Do you wanna change your name?
+ yes and no. Ppl like my name which I dun like.

9.What did you do yesterday?
+ nth much except playing no life game like Audition and chatting..

10 . Last time You had pizza?
+ somewhere ard last week? dun rmb.

11 . What time did you wake up today?
+ 8am

12 . What were you doing at 10:30pm?
+ ytd night? still playing Audition I guess?

1 3. Name something you CANNOT wait for:
+ have xxx. HAHA! hormones man! HORMONES~!

14. Last time you saw your father:
+ last night b4 I slp? =D

15. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life?
+ hmm, my lazyness OLD HABITS DIE HARD dude~

16. What are you listening to right now?
+ NDP song. my home. haha. fking assignment la. =="

17. Have you ever say goodbye forever to the one u loved?
+ no. most probably I'm nt that strong to hang on.. someone have to slap me and tell me to move on.

18 . Who's getting on your nerves right now?
+ I'm isolationg myself. =D less talk more work MORE PLAY XP

19. Would u consider yourself as a player in terms of relationship?
+ hmm, my bf knows I'm a flirt. hahas.

20. Have you seen anyone naked in the past few week?
+ yes. myself. =D

Assignment datelines are drawing near.. and I'm yet near completion of any one of them.. I dont know where shld I go now.. was planning to change course.. it will be equalivelent to going back to yr1.. I wun mind actually.. if I'm really doing what I like.. but, since I'm alreadi in yr2(haha.. davs.. *hinthint*), almost everyone say that I shld continue on.. but was thinking.. I really cannot do this anymore.. argh..

adding to the fuel, is our relationship problem.. ok la.. there's been misunderstanding between us.. partly was my fault for nt being understanding enough.. sometimes I feel so hurt by his words.. I juz cant talk to him anymore.. cant help it.. I miss him so much..

meeting and talking back with leewah really made me feel betta thou.. but, now, everyone's busy with assignments and exams.. I dont want to 'fan' her with this since she also has her set of problems.. which, I tink worst than mine.. (ahh~ i'm a weakling!)

the other day, met up with Johnson agn.. thanks dude~ hahas.. nt for him, I wun b eating my lunch agn.. ahh.. lately no appetite to eat.. no hunger pangs, no tummy growling and I cant even feel if I'm eating or not.. @@ have alot of sleepless nights.. even if i slpt enough.. I would still feel very tired.. every now and then, I'll doze off if I dont do something to keep myself awake..

I know my plans for future arent as strong or as amiable as you guys.. but, cant a sch dropout be as successful as the rest? I know 18 is too young for anything.. but I really AM sailling to no where.. I just want to do my business seriously.. this time I'm not joking.. it's been my childhood dream to setup a business of my own.. and yes, david william.. I did it.. =D my shop is still standing tall till this day, It will be and It shall be standing till the day u come and visit me.. =D

what I ask for now is support.. not lecture. not advice. not even suggestion.. when I need it, I'll know who to go.. no worries.. =)

and thanks Victor.. =) u juz made my day feel a lil betta..




++ topic ++
is it really inapproprieate for couples to hug and kiss in public?
I wasnt born into a hugs and kisses family.. but I believe that these harmless act could simply made your day happier.. my sis loves to hug me.. I hug my sis too.. all these juz make me go aww~ you're so sweet.. but, do this onli to ppl hum they allow AND comfortable to hug in public.. haha.. I love hugging my dear in public.. nt kissing thou since there's too many pair of eyes are watching us.. and I realise, most adults dont like teenagers to do that in public.. hello~ dont u do that when you're young? what excite most is the feeling I got when I'm going home by 6pm.. that's when my dad would b on the train as well.. so there would be higher chances of him seeing me with Jeff.. XD it's super exciting.. my heart races through out the whole journey back home.. haha! if he really caught us one day, haha.. i dont know what to say, mayb, yah.. we're still tgt.. and I love him.. haha! did i see a big tight slap on my face? XP

ahh.. back to topic.. tat day, I was directly standing infront of this couple.. both kip hugging and giggling like any other couple.. haha.. it juz made me feel jealous.. y my dear's nt with me.. =X budden at the other side, this auntie keep starring at them.. hey auntie! mind ur own bussiness can? so kaypoh for wad sial! and on another unlucky day when I dint meet dear, and there happens to have 3 couples surrounding me.. wahahaha! super green mosnter by then.. =\ I dont have him to support me when the mrt jerks.. I dont have him to talk to me during the ride.. I dont have him to touch when I'm feeling naughty.. I dont have him to stroke my hair.. I dont have him to open the pathway for me when I needed to alight.. I dont have him to hold my hands.. I dont have him to kiss me goodbye when I'm leaving.. aww~ I juz hate them..

1. How are you feeling today?
~ starting to feel numb again. x.x

2. Where did you go yesterday?
~ leewah's coffeeshop. celebrate her bday. and Airport. Sis flying off.

3 .Who do you miss badly?
~ hu else but him?

4. What are you doing now?
~ typing ans-ing this thing cuz I'm lazy to do my assignment. XP

5. Honestly, are you a racist?
~ yeah. I tink I'm kinda.

6. Do you like rock/hardcore music?
~ neither?

7. What's your hobby?
~ refer to my frienster. =)

8. Where do you wanna go right now?
~ China, Thailand, Vietnam, HongKong to swipe all the great deals and.. u know.. XD

9. What do you see in life?
~ fragile. If u have experience near death before, U'll know.

10. If you could do anything that's without punishment,what would you do?
~ have xxx LOL! blame on my hormones! =X

11. Do you follow the law?
~ haha. wad ya think?

12. Are you considered as a happy person?
~ I onli look happy infront of my customers. =D put on a smile~

13. Where are your parents?
~ Mom's at home. Dad's overseas. =)

14. Do you smoke alot?
~ yeah! I take in but dun give out.

15. Do you drink alot?
~ rarely. I hate my tomato face and the giddy head afterwards. I have loads of things to do!!

16. What do you think about cats/kittens?
~ erm, graphic cats? cute. real life cats? monster!

17. Do you still watch Barney?
~ I'm nt a 8yrs old kid.

18. Anyone who has inspired you in anyways?
~ I dunno. I dun feel inspired now. x.x

19. Do you like being in school?
~ no. I hate studying! y muz we study! if we muz, STUDY SOMETHING WE LIKE!

20. Are you anti-social?
~ Lonely~ I'm so lonelyyyy.. I have nobody~~ All of my own~ ooooooowwwwoooooooo.. =P

21. Do you trust your friends easily?
~ I judge u before I tell u.

22. Ever betrayed the person you cared the most?
~ erm, Yes I guess?

23. What's on your mind right now?
~ I'm DOOOOOMMMMMM!!! FAIL FAIL FAIL FAIL FAIL. (did i hear jeff's slap again?)

24. Rain, sun or windy?
~ RAIN RAIN go away~ come again another day~

25. Are you in love?
~ like duh~

26. What's your sister doing?
~ wad else? living her live la.

27. Ever been to a dog show?
~ no. I'm nt an animal lover i guess.

28. Do you eat pork?
~ yeappo!

29. Ever gotten Dengue Fever?
~ choy~ no.

30. If you can have 1 super power, what would it be?
~ duplicate myself. Or have time travelling machine. I'm too slow for this world.

31. Where do you study? And do you like it?
~ SP. hmm, not bad I can say.. but I prefer Nafa.

32. Anything that's bothering you right now?
~ duh~ SCH PROJECTS! ASSIGNMENTS! MY SHOP! (how come I dun bother abt my weight?) HAHA! CUZ I have no time for IT!

33. Ocean, sea, river or swimming pool?
~ river. I'm afraid of the fishes in the sea. but I love snorkling. x.x contradicting. haha!

34. Have you ever been to UK?
~ nope. U spondor 6 of us go, then I'll go for sure. (including spending money k? =P)

35. What surprises you?
~ his hug. CATS! insects! and DIAMOND!

36. What time is it now?
~ kepoh. 12:18pm.

37. Are you home-sick?
~ nope. I cant wait to go overseas!

38. Do you wanna go out and shop?
~ duh~ I wanna do it RIGHT NOW! where's my kaki shopping!

39. What do you hate the most?
~ ppl hu're late.(i'm nt like that in the past.) shy guys. grrrr!

40. Remember the past?
~ in case u duno. I have SSTM!! =D

quick update i guess



monday - meet up with ex-maple-guildmate. yamasuto. Johnson. =) saw Tommy on the way.. chated awhile.. meet him.. lunch's on him. ^^v ok la.. we both hit it off quite well, juz tt.. like most guys, he dare not look at me.. haha.. after awhile okok ler.. another Mr Lamer and Crapper.. juz like Jeffrey dear.. =.= vomit blood! walkwalk awhile before Jeff dada come n join us.. haha.. Johnson was pretty quick with the intro.. hehes.. saves me the mafan of intro =X walkwalk awhile.. nth much to walk.. hahas.. he left earlier.. =.= dunno hu say wun ps der.. in the end oso zao.. =.= so, me n dada walkwalk awhile.. go home.. tiring.



tuesday - (TODAY) since morning no sch. went to meet dear. =) cant movie. so juz walk ard.. drink my coffee, eat his toast, drink his yuanyang n eat his eggs.. lols.. went to arcade to play daytona.. our first game gt one extra person joined in.. zzz.. nvm.. juz contd play.. nt v pro.. juz avg like us.. =) budden, they two banged each other.. the last lap, dear buaysong, go bang him back. make dear 3rd.. while the extraguy's car spin and i was cruising pass his car.. and DAM! i merely miss by the HEADLAMP of the car onli lo!! else i'll b number one! =.= heng he chicken out the 2nd round.. =) so onli me n dear fight.. I managed to do drifts here and there until the last part, i kinda wobbly.. (nervous) so I thought I will juz lose since dear's car nearer to finishing line.. so we both like.. kinda give up in the end, i banged into dear's car and he spin.. making me first headed by the car headlamp! wahahah!! =X walked to IMM.. talked alot with him.. =) walk nt long.. we took bus and train to sch.. =) pity dear din have his kiss since yesterday.. =X simply cuz too many ppl are watching ler.. hehe.. lunch was my karipap + hashbrown.. lol..



aft sch, went Concert (Linkin Park) wid dajie. ^^ whew~ so tiring to walk there.. nxt time shld juz flag down a taxi.. haha.. arrived there earlier.. the standing crowd was crazy.. we waited for 1hr for them to arrive.. haha.. impatient.. shld have known betta since they are the artist.. so, obvious they wun b punctual wad.. hahas.. but ppl are getting frustrated and impatient.. hahas.. o0 stated there no photography are allowed? thou most ppl respect this rule by juz snapping photos outta their camphones(like I do) but some ppl still bring those BIG BULK camera.. and FLASHSNAP at LP. aww~ I pity them, muz b blinded awhile.. haha! the place we sat was juz nice. thou abit too sidestage ler.. but I really love it.. ^^ LP was awesome.. no doubt their band performance.. and Hell yeah I can gurantee that they aint lipsync.. =) worth the money. but not worth the wait. n not worth the HEAT!!! Chester was crazy. He's jumping ard like mad monkehy and suddenly nxt song, was a sad sad song.. aww~ I love the new accustic song they made.. Just mike and chester.. =) sweet loves~ damn nice! wooots~ everyone was so upbeat by the 3rd song they sing.. haha.. their first song rarely move the crowd at all.. haha.. there's this 2guys sitting infront of us.. =.= damn anti-anthu.. =.= everyone was standing, shouting, screaming, singing, jumping and waving their hand like crazy and all they did was some standing, some waving, some singing. no shouting. no screaming. haha. weird. the angmohs beside them were kinda cool~ haha.. mayb we shld join them instead and have MORE fun! LOL!! the guy/gal (i dunno) sitting beside me oso stonning der.. haha! mayb I over enthu.. XD they played all the songs that I like.. ^^ and I gotto say, I HATE LP! the climax was really nailbitting lah! =.= heng in the end, they came up again and perform for us! darn! my voice almost break there when I'm practically singing/shouting accordingly.. haha! AWESOME! I'm half-deaf now.. LOL.. temporary lost my hearing at that time.. HAHAAHAAHHAHH!! now even if u talk to me.. I cannot actually hear u.. HAHA! aww~ so dead darn tired.. LP was "spraying" water to the audience.. haha.. den when they throw their stuff out to their fans.. It gives me an RUBBISH throwing impression.. =X sry bout tt but I really feel so.. XD nth much actually.. now since I've WENT to a concert.. BEEN to a concert.. it's been quite and experience to me.. goiing back home was bad.. no cabs wanna take flag in.. all wan to wait for oncall so they can charge callingfee + midnight surcharge.. zzz.. kns! I juz wan go home la.. damn tiring.. my eyes cant hold this anymore~ gtg bath already~ CANT GET THEIR AUTOGRAPH!!! CUZ WE NO BACKSTAGEPASS!!! haha! no more concerts for me! I dun wanna b half-deaf agn since I'm alreadi 3/4 deaf! zzz~!

ytd, I was so damn happy cuz I meet Jeffrey. =D

ytd, I was sad cuz of wad he told me at night. =(

Audi : I was playing happily there.. hahas.. competing with this vietnamese guy(Tata) who's a chancer + chainer.. =.= I have to reach 600k of marks if I wan to win him.. ( perf x 9 perf 25 ) else, I'll juz lose to him.. it's so damn tiring man! but out of 20games, I won aveg 6games.. =) damn happy.. hahas! =X couple game was KNS! my fren (Cutest) wan play wid him.. cuz he pro mah.. =.= so I play wid other guys.. wakao! couple-8 ~100 oso, HE CHAINER! =.= but thanks to Cutest, hu gladly "noob".. =X me n my partner(Viper) won! XDD first time 5 hearts! after that 7 hearts! XDD den Cutest bu shuang.. wan 4k 140~ we lost.. cuz of me.. =.= Tata chainer and chancer agn.. =.= we played until 3am.. HE STILL HAVE THE ENERGY TO CONTINUE!! omg! cutest me n viper all so tired already.. =.= wee~ i tried all the moves I got! some sucky. some nice! but i tink those breakdance moves are roughly the same one la.. One move is left hand jump. another move is right hand jump. another move is jump from left.. pretty much nth special.. =\ bah~ waste my time trying it out..

dear login. come talk to me.. suddenly dear say, his maple gf is first class honour.. ok la.. i DID feel abit jealous.. so, I denied it at first.. then he went on and say, he wanted to try the new wedding system wid her.. WTF! wedding = buying of @cash.. which means he will spend on her.. I felt damn jealous from then on.. I dun wanna tell him that I'm nt in favour of it.. I dun wanna him to feel as if everything oso muz ask me.. I DONT WANT THAT! I dunno how to react.. jus ask him to do wad he wan lo.. den dear asked me, dear jealous ma? got not happy? dear not happy den I dun do ler.. haix.. I dunno wad to reply him.. I jus stood there in my game.. I dint even move for all the games afterwards.. Viper asked if I'm alright.. =\ gave him a weak smile..

after the game, I lie in bed so long.. I cant slp! cuz mymind kip repeating those words that he typed to me in audi.. yah... I cried the whole night.. I know it's silly.. But I just cant help it! I wanna msg dear to chat.. but I doubt he's still awake.. so I press the exit button and search through my phone book.. Davs? I dunno.. I doubt he'll reply me so fast.. Nic? Slp alreadi for sure.. Kor? he so stress, dun wanna disturb him.. Victor? Confirm slp alreadi oso.. Ahma? I dunno wan talk wad oso.. Ahger? same thing.. haix.. in the end, I stare at my phone.. close it.. and lay on my bed..

until I awoke this morning.. Erjie made me smile.. =D love my sista! but they're eating sushi today.. I cant tag along since I'm having lessons.. Erjie asked me agn. LOL.. jie, if I'm going out wid jeffrey, I sure bring him go with me.. =X but seriously, have lesson.. so now I'm starring at this computer, writting nonsense here.. =)

Dear say he's free today.. cuz he only got one lesson today.. so I thought.. YAY! can see him agn! den dear say, he wan stay and study.. =\ I understand lah.. dear's exam coming soon.. I shall b a gd gf and shant kacau him for the time being.. =)

TEST / EXAM: thanks to Jeffrey dear, Nicholas, Victor and Opai the bastrad for ur wishes.. I'm sure that I can pass this test! even if fail.. OSO NVM! =D

Lionel : owe me Badminton game
Opai : owe me coffee
Mooty(Dewei) : owe me prata and coffee
Nic(Ken) : owe me an ans!(cut where?) =X

Si PETER!.. u tink u so gd har? =.= if u ask me go npc wid u.. lose ler den dun say so much la.. u tink u sibei pro har.. ok la.. i know i'm a burden to the team.. I alreadi try my best.. wad else u wan me to do.. if u dun wna me play, JUST TELL LA! fker knn cb my gf pro than u lo.. so shut ur arsehole mouth and play ur game.. zzz..

ytd Long tell tyson and bmx to tell me.. to go n die.. =.= today, he commented on my top, saying it's too revealing.. makes me look like a slut? hahas.. hu the hell are u Long? u're my ex.. u dun have power over wad i want to do.. and PLZ.. Any Of Your Friends.. plz plz leave me alone.. I'm neither looking for bf.. neither m I concerned with wad Long is doing now.. read my LIPs! I. AM. NOT. INTERESTED. TO. KNOW. ANYTHING. ABOUT. LONG.!

currently, I'm v excited abt my flea market store.. hahas.. juz cant stop thinking abt it! OMG! I even forgotten abt my test on monday.. XD ok. i hope i rmb to go to sch? hahas! fail or pass.. i dunno.. I seriously feel like quitting my course and join the business course.. juz that I hate accounting and stuff like that.. eeyah! dunno.. still thinking.. scared to tell my parents about it..

i have to go and exercise alreadi.. now, after naggings from my family and friends.. and of course, Jeffrey dear.. even nic agrees with them.. and davs oso! rawr! =.= *searching for other options of exercising*

EEYYAAA!! LIONEL! IF U'RE READING THIS.. WHEN ARE WE PLAYING BADMINTON?? SO LONG LER.. UNTIL NOW STILL HAVEN DECIDE!! U COME SP LA!! WE ALL GO NP BO HUA LA.. MAI STUBBORN COME SP LA..

::: I was informed that my tagboard sometimes doesnt work? sry for that but I doubt a tagboard would do any difference.. so I wun go and debug it.. =) thanks for the info! :::

I love e-learning week. I juz spend my time "NOT" wisely.. hahas.. omg.. i juz LOVE my gems so much.. i wish it could be my CORE module.. haix.. tt day talked to Jovin abt changing course.. mayb changing to Jason's course.. mayb repeating this course but differ option.. dunno la.. i'm still thinking..

this few days I've been indulging myself in shopping.. hahas.. din ACTUALLY bought something everytime.. but juz enjoy the accompany of my sister.. ^^ so fun! mom actually weren't angry when we came home ard 11plus? wahahah! if dad were at home, he would b asking us to go home earlier.. hahaas! shop on saturday. shop on monday. shop on wed. wooohooo~ shopping on friday too? =X there goes my wallet~ *boom!*

davs been msging me.. tt's like.. so weird.. cuz usually he wun msg me unless it's something he wants to know.. hahas.. =X davs.. r u reading this? =X he commented that he dun see me in msn.. is tt so? but i thought i alwayz online? hahas.. chat wid u soon dude~ oh ya, u betta save money for the sushi!! i aint gonna pay for u! rawr! =X

and, yah.. dear know I'm gonna meet david ler.. lols.. did i sense a tinge of jealousy there? =P lols.. some of my frenz asked me.. y muz u tell everything to ur bf? hahas.. cuz i believe he has the right to know? y would I want to meet a guy behind his back and get him hurt afterwards? == I love him too much to hurt him. =D

Audi update.. hahas.. ok so. broken up with LONG.. but we're still frenz.. can sense he still wan me back.. but.. i wanna stay single lah.. having bf juz restrict the number of MALE frenz i can have. =x XDD does LONG n me got to do with anyone of u? stop asking me how is me n him. we've broken up. and that's it! my "son" still ask me y i keep him instead of deleting him.. hahas.. hmm, get to know more ppl from other country playing audi.. if u happen to FOUND me... (nick's maumau) =D take a look at my wonderful dens.. all thanks to my "gf" XD Mk invited me to play 8k bp.. lols.. i was thinking, why in the world would he wan me to play when i cant even move properly! onli to realise, his frenz are all pros.. x.x i'm juz like a slot filler hahas.. but it's good. i get dens at half the effort.. XD the "gf" so funny.. thou she's pro.. but i nvr wan add her ma.. den she say, maumau.. i add u ler.. play wid u sometime... OMG.. make me feel so noob inside.. =.= I cant stand pros.. they juz make me feel sucky.. but i AM sucky.. so, wadever~

and i get to play AUDITION PORTABLE! it's rather frustrating than fun.. hahas.. but i'm still learning with the keys and such.. =) thanks to my bf hu FOUND it for me! ^^ (cuz prev it was deleted and NIC deleted it from his com alreadi so practically, i dunno where he found it)

okies. i tink i shld get going. the later i slp. the more Jeff will nag. the more my sister will slp over my space. the more eyebags i'll have. the more sick i'll get.

to everyone's hu's sick out there~ HAPPY SICK DAY! ^^

is ytd halloween day? i get random wishes here n there.. trick of treats? =)


OOOOHH YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA..

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY NICHOLAS! =) finally u're OLD!